Can't help but wait...

Kanye's new album is pretty damn good, a definite recommendation. I've been in a Hip Hop/R&B mood with all the dancing I've been doing, and Graduation gets a few plays.

But this post is less about music, but more of a clearing of thoughts.
So graduation is in a few months, and today's events were all calls for introspection. Not that I want to to think about it all, but its unavoidable.

So today I went to the new Urban Outfitters HQ for some executive leadership panel/reception. The company / building / executives all are amazing. Plus DOGS are allowed! Unfortunately there are no opportunities for them in New York. So what to do?? Do I want to work in Philly? My good bud will be there for a few years, its worth thinking about... Then I would have to worry about rent and etc... It'd be a waste of some expensive real estate in NYC if my parents kept that apartment for me and I won't use it, and I want to use it! A whole floor will be mine to chill, but what job will I be coming home from. I can't imagine a job right now that I will be going home from, tired but satisfied.

I heard a lot about passion and a lot about creativity today. What can I do that will inspire me to have that passion and creativity? I can't really answer that question right now and it sucks.

Now to exudate (expel) some of my negative thoughts... What are you supposed to do if you know you just said or did something awkward? Not to say I didn't impress some people today, but I have a feeling I didn't make a great impression on every person I met. Is it better to be ignorant to awkwardness like an unnamed really loud/annoying girl did today. I'm pretty sure they never got back to her after meeting her previously for a reason, yet she persisted to annoy and pester execs and recruiters.
Will continue my thoughts again later...

I wonder if you know what it means to find your dreams...

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Ambiguity

Here's a new fav for ya all.

Ride - Cary Brothers

I heard it on MTV one time, and it took me like a week to find it. An awesome driving song, it makes me wanna just leave my books behind and drive... If only I saw the movie its featured in, The Last Kiss, I probably would have gotten it a while ago. I would still like to see it, it has J.D in it ha, for all you lame non-scrubs fans, Zach Braff.

Anyway, before I get back to studying, - basically hardcore cramming, I just wanted to write about something I read today. It was about how guys can't deal with ambiguity like women do. Even if that's a generalization, ambiguity is a big thing driving me. Here I am faced with ambiguity constantly, and I have yet to figure out a way to really minimize the stress that comes with that. That's just life right?

I should really post more, especially since my weekend home in the city was a blast and I had my most outrageous and fun subway ride ever... a story definitely worth telling... To make up for it, I'll post another song, one from my chillout/lounge collection. It's also found on a movie soundtrack that I haven't seen yet. It just makes me want to chill/party in NYC, which I am in the mood to do instead of studying, so here it is.

Bittersweet Faith - Bitter-Sweet

Love the word bittersweet too, it applies to Love & Life.

Shoot since I'm breaking out my alternative/chillout songs, I'm going to make a playlist.

Features:

A slow/duet version of Viva la White Girl - Gym Class Heroes - if someone could find the info on it like who is the female vocalist, please comment/let me know.

Grey's Anatomy favorite, and now Old Navy "jingler" - Ingrid Michealson's - Way I am

And a nice slow curveball,
Soulja Girl - Soulja Boy.

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